Hello! It’s been a while since my last post hehe. I hope you are well.
Anyway, I just watched this YouTube video from an Indonesian blogger. He interviewed this one actor about his love life. It was alright, until he mentioned this concept of 3 loves which he stumbled upon the other day. And I think the concept is actually pretty interesting (and quite accurate in my case, I think)…
The First Love
This love is the naive love. The kind of love we strived for just so that we could fulfil our personal ‘fairy tale’ dream of romance. We would even believe that it would be our only love.
Well for me, it was quite true. I don’t even remember the details of our ‘relationship’ now, but I know for sure that I really enjoyed being showered with all those attention and admiration. I mean, for a secondary school kid it was pretty magical 🙂
The Hard Love
This is the kind of love that teaches us lessons about who we are and how we want or need to be loved. This love can sometimes turn into an unhealthy and unbalanced with high levels of drama. Which is why we easily got addicted to its storyline (ironic). The emotional rollercoaster is exciting and just like a drug junkie, we often stick through the lows with the expectation of the high. Hence, we often find ourselves trying too hard to make it work regardless of how destructive and toxic the relationship actually is.
Okay. Hard slap, but this is exactly the kind of ‘love’ I just managed to recover from. It was probably the hardest emotional hurdle I ever needed to get through. I mean, I have been living a quite peaceful life until then and to be fair it was not even an official ‘relationship’ whatsoever. But I kept on trapping myself in this mindset that he must have been the one and I was the one who have not tried harder, or maybe I should have changed into whoever it is he wanted me to be. I don’t even know why. Well thank God I have passed that stage.
The Love That Lasts
This one is the love we would never see coming. The one that usually looks all wrong for us in the beginning, destroying our imagination on how love ‘should be’, but it would be the kind of love that comes so easy just because everything clicks and we felt accepted for who we are, and not for who they want us to be. It should be the one that shows us why it never worked with other people before.
I hope this is true. Right now, I am expecting for this love to come eventually. I would never know when, where, or how this love will come. But until then, I know I will be striving to be a better me. Wishing us all a better luck in romance this second half of 2018 hehehe.