Right now, I’m kind of freaking out.
Because exam is coming and also because within less than three weeks, I’m going to turn 20.
Yea yea, big deal.
YES IT IS
It is a BIG no HUGE DEAL for me.
I mean, ever since I was younger, I have always been surrounded by older people. My brother’s friends, my parents’ acquaintance’s children, etc. and my mind subconsciously created this ‘ideal’ image of adults. Maybe Young Adults.
The ones who are composed, well dressed, intelligent, sociable, driven, and so on and so forth.
Now that I’m actually walking further from my teenage years, I could not help but to take a look at the person I have turned out to be.
And to be honest, I don’t feel like I have ticked all those criteria I mentioned of a ‘proper-20-something-people’. I am still confused of my life path, am still not sure if I had chosen the right degree, if I would ever have six pack and skinny legs, I feel like my mindset is not that of an adult YET. So basically, I am not ready.
But then again, as I’m getting ready to embrace my new age, things started to come across my mind. I thought of things I would like to do differently in my younger years now that I am older and what I would like to tell myself then to change the outcome of my future self. I know, this is so random and just weird. But I would like to share it in my blog.
- Do not over think.Seriously. No use. Things would not turn out as expected, whether you’re prepared for them or not.
- Things will not be awkward unless you feel awkward. So, just enjoy every moment. People are interesting. Learn from them. Don’t limit your circle just because you don’t want to feel exposed.
- Do not be afraid of people’s judgement. Do more of what you feel like doing. What’s the worst thing that could happen? Being seen as a freak? Who cares!
- Learn as many skills as you can before going to college. Learn piano, guitar, English, French, Mandarin, anything! You have all the resources you need in your hometown. Use them wisely!
- Be more “chill”. I know it could be hard sometimes to ‘let go’ of the things you cannot control (in this context, it’s school grades). But then again, your grades do not define you. Nobody cares about your high school grades when you’re in Uni.
- Make as many friends as you can. Cherish every moment you have with your close friends with whom you enjoy spending time with. Because once you’re separated, you’d realize how hard it is to find such a close-knitted community.
- Do not complain all the time. Just live it up!
- Do not worry about things that are not yours to worry about in every moment. Just focus on the things you want to achieve. Never settle for the second best.
Hahaha. That’s it.
I wonder what would you say to your younger self if you could?